Step Two

I actually followed through on my ye ole post and have not tried to beat myself up today for not reading theory, writing, or researching. How the hell was I supposed to do all that without actually having a place to do so?

But anyways...the holidays are here, whether I'm ready for them or not and this year is mixed with so many emotions. We will of course miss our granny because at Thanksgiving she was always the one to cut the turkey and proclaim when it was time for folks to go home. At Christmas, it was her house we gathered around to talk and dance. Then of course we've got the babe this year. While she doesn't know much about holidays, its weird how I still feel this need to go through the traditions with her. I know she won't remember this Christmas or Thanksgiving, but its like you want to start with the traditions already.

Last year at this time I was preggers and also a bit sad too, thinking back over how things were going at that time, but now I realize I had no idea what I was in for.

I'm feeling a bit better today, things don't seem quite as cloudy and I'm hoping this mood sticks around longer than the turkey.