last night was pretty rough. this has just been a difficult week, so much so that i've wanted to go home several times. really go home, like pack everything and head south..for the winter. and spring. and summer..and..
i think a part of the problem has been that everything is due in the next few weeks: presentations, proposals, reading lists, on top of the teaching i have to do, on top of my family responsibilities that come first (and that are even more difficult when a babe isn't feeling well). so there are all of these layers. today i tried to get things accomplished, but its been hard and somehow i just don't feel like its quite enough, but thats a feeling i've been having for quite some time.
i've made a list and have five things that *must* get done by monday. i'm working on very little sleep right now because i've been trying to get up early and work as well, so i think i'm gonna finish my reading and try to go to bed. i'm not going to accomplish anything as tired as i feel now.
i miss the sun.
2 comments:
Sometimes, you have to recognize that while you can do it all, you can't do it all to YOUR standards and the way you'd like to. Thinking about what has to be done (how much feedback the students actually need, what the assignment actually calls for, what you really need to get out of the reading) and then working with those goals in mind, rather than trying to do it, is necessary.
And sleep. Sleep is necessary.
Also, I don't know which family members are involved in the family obligations, but if they're the ones back home, sometimes it is necessary to say to them that you're only in grad school for 5 years. They've had you for how many years? If they want to see you, they can come to where you are. I don't know what your family situation is, but I do know that many people (so, not just me) who leave home for grad school are pushed to make efforts to come back home--efforts the folks at home aren't willing to make. You haven't done anything wrong by leaving home.
thank u and i really needed to hear that.
sending good vibes your way too>>>>>
ilnizzzah
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